Monday, May 23, 2011

The Speedy Batman/Speakeasy of the East Side

A few days back, I was enjoying the brief stint of decent weather on my front porch, sippin' on tea and juice and listening to Rick Flair mashups, when I was approached by a scrawny but muscular man probably in his late forties wearing a plain black T-shirt, denim shorts, workboots and sunglasses. The first thing he said to me was, "There was a black man on your porch the other night." The man was black himself, though he said "black" in an accusatory fashion. "You notice anything missing?"

 "Not really," I said, though that might have been the fate of our old half-functional vacuum that had sat neglected on the front porch for some time before, I began to notice, apparently disappearing.

The man continued, "I saw him, and I said, 'You know these folks?' and he said, 'Yeah, Joe live here.' and I said, 'You don't know who live here; now get off this porch before I beat yo ass.' I told him that and he took off."

"Well," I said. It occurred to me that the man speaking to me might well have been the same man that rang my doorbell a few nights back, whom I saw walking away when I answered the door. I remembered no intervention. "Appreciate it, I guess."

"Yeah. I'm friends with the chief of police, you know him?"
"I know of him."
"Well I'm friends with him, and when they got a murder or something, need to find a man, they call me. And then I go find them and kick they ass."
"No shit."
"Yeah man. So if I see someone strange comin' on your porch again at night, I'm'a kick they ass too."
"I don't know about that."
"Man these realtors, they don't tell you shit. All they want is your money. They don't tell you nothin' about the area."
"Yeah, they just don't want that much of my money is the thing. I know exactly where I live."

I live just on the east side of Athens, GA, already one of the poorest municipalities in the nation, and while my street itself is not rough, comprising mostly old black families that have been there for generations and own the houses and have jobs, it is not far off from some of the more notorious development projects and the tent city by the river and railroad tracks, both hubs for poverty and crime. Still, I recognize most of the people that I see on the street, I'm friends with my neighbors, and I have yet to experience a break-in, unlike my previous college apartment a block from campus.

"See, I do cocaine myself," the man went on, "I get high. I smoke crack... but I work for it. So I'm just saying. You ever need someone's ass gettin' kicked, you know where to find me." No I didn't. "Also, if you ever need beer on a Sunday or something."
"Oh, I've got that one covered," I said.
"Hey, man, you mind if I have a cigarette?"
"Sure, whatever."

And he left. The speedy Batman/speakeasy of the East Side, up in smoke, on his way, surely, to do a line with the commissioner over an ice cold Sunday beverage. I wish I could pull some sort of moral out of this. If stimulated, even the destitute dream of justice and social freedoms? Complicated excuses raise more suspicions than they alleviate? Don't watch stupid videos outside if you don't want to look like a naive white kid? Entertainment gets you free stuff? Either way, my character profile of this area is constantly widened.

Monday, April 18, 2011

The Ethics of Recycling Are Not So Black and White, But Rather Floral.

I consider myself to be an ethical person, in that I try to rationally consider the many possible repercussions of my actions. Or make impulse decisions and later justify them with business ethics. Generally, recycling is a big part of that. I don't usually like to let things go to waste when they could be used or repurposed in some positive manner. But is it ethical to give away something you know no one else should have? You know, like Ukraine saying, "naw, you go ahead, China, we weren't really using that warship anyway."

I was going through the long-abandoned depths of my closet yesterday looking for clothes to donate to the thrift store when I found a near decade-old collection of Hawaiian shirts. And that was when the ethical automaton in my brain returned a grinding "does not compute:" not in re-encountering the fact that I had at one time purchased these items; I was young and naive and avoided mirrors. Business ethics. No, my problem is that I'm not so sure it's right to keep Hawaiian shirts in circulation.

Sure, someone could use them. Could. But I wouldn't give an aging red-head henna hair dye, just as I wouldn't give a homeless person the Bitter Melon I bought at the Asian market (on sale; business ethics), because that would imply that bitter Melon is a food, and I happen to think honesty is a virtue, and the truth is: Bitter Melon tastes like ass. I would rather eat pizza from a garbage can, or a stick dipped in ranch.

Maybe it's best to at least make possible the opportunity for mistakes. Sometimes people need to learn things the hard way. College-town liquor stores happily release droves of Keystone and Mr. Boston upon the pre-traumatic public. But I also know that Hawaiian shirts can be a gateway into areas of the human experience that one would be wise to avoid. True, there was the time that I decided to kick heroin, and, not wanting to let a good thing go to waste (it was that good good too), dropped the remainder of my stash off at the local Boys and Girls club. But that was different. I was legally insane at the time. Business ethics.

There is a time and a place for Hawaiian shirts, and it's not this decade in an impoverished Georgia town. Who knows, maybe they'll come back into style. Maybe if I keep it long enough my son will inherit a vintage Hawaiian shirt just when they're at the height of fashion and his peers will consider him the "Overlord's Twitter" or whatever the kids'll say in those days. And I'll think to myself, "I am the proud father of a fourteen year old young man on the road to success... God that kid looks like a douchebag."

I'm beginning to think I should instead donate the shirts to a local theater, for use in the costume department. Then I could write a play about how four middle-aged lesbians meet a tragically young-at-heart jazz-fusion apologist at a James Taylor tribute concert on the beach of Half Moon Bay and mistake him for one of their own. Hilarity ensues as they maneuver through the horrors of their time and grapple with personal demons. But the play ends on a crucial question, as the audience doesn't get to see what they do with their shirts at the end!

I spent so long deliberating on this today that, by the time I had shamefacedly made up my mind to turn it into someone else's problem, the thrift store had closed. Great. Now I'm all worried about what would happen if I got pulled over and the cops searched my trunk.

In other news, I'm thinking of having a bonfire tonight, but I would understand if only my closest friends showed up.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Microfiction

I'll also be posting story niblets at ficly, for the attention deficit:
http://ficly.com/authors/microben

Doomsday Coming at the Athens Mall

I can't remember the last time I spent any amount of time or money at a mall, but over the summer I had the opportunity to do both for longer than anyone would ever want to. My laptop needed fixing, and the address of the repair shop I happened to find first was in the mall (I discovered after wandering around the outside of the mall for nearly an hour). My friend had dropped me off there, and I was to take a bus home when the repairs were complete.

The shop was run by an Asian couple, piled to overflow with boxes and parts, and a little smelly despite mall ventilation, which means it passed all three of my preliminary quality tests for a computer repair shop. Not only that, it existed in its own time continuum: each time I entered the store, at one hour intervals, I was told that the work would be complete in one hour. Either they were bluffing, or, more likely, the toxic drippings from the food court above had congealed densely enough to slow time itself. Fortunately the distribution of mall food courts throughout the world is uniform enough to ensure that gravitational differences are only noticeable within the stores themselves. They are, however, solely responsible for the coming pole shift.

If any of you have spent any time in purgatory, you'll know that the bookstore is frustratingly small or nonexistent, the labyrinth is paved with clothes you don't really want and gadgets you've never even seen on TV which wouldn't be a selling point to begin with, you probably shouldn't get a hamster, and the free samples aren't fooling anyone. In short, it is an exercise in alternating temptation and repulsion, and you're likely to come out of it with little memory of the events but a vague sense of a lesson learned, especially once you receive the credit card bill. Of the five hours I spent there, I remember wandering, searching for something to hold on to, checking the clock insistently (but the gravity wells play tricks), trying to stay outside which is little better. Sort of like a bad acid trip with more boring visuals. But by the end I was so deprived of meaningful information that I was sensitized to the smallest of packets: the casual conversation, whether eavesdropped or participated.

Waiting for the bus outside I stood next to a man of about thirty five. I said:
"Hey, the bus didn't come early, did it?"
"Naw, you don't much have to worry about that. I'm just hoping it shows up soon. I got off work early to avoid the rain."
It was a hot, clear summer day, and that might have been the end of the conversation, but the mall wouldn't let it be.
"...Man, it's been hot and muggy all day today." He said.
"More like every day."
"Yeah, I'm tellin ya. 'nis only gon' get worse, too."
"What, coming years, you mean?"
"Mmmhm. We done fucked up the ozone. It's just gon' get hotter, and hotter, and hotter..."
"Might be right."
"Hotter and hotter, til e'er'thing just catch fire and burn up!"
"Um."
"Can't find no water, all you can find is smoked salmon, man, shiiiit."
"Right, well, I just hope we can put it off as long as possible. I got shit to do."

The bus showed up and we boarded and never saw each other again. But I did see the girl, whom I've seen many times before in almost every part of Athens, the girl who wears the same giant sweater and matching stocking cap and walks around covering her face with her hand, so that only her eyes are visible. She sat in the seat across from me and I tried watching her every now and then, trying to catch her with her face uncovered. I had my theories: perhaps she had had some terrible accident, or a stroke, or some such face disfigurement that would make someone self-conscious enough to go to all the trouble to manually hide her face. This time, though, I was mall-warped enough to assume that she either straight up didn't own a face or was a ghost of some sort.

When we got off the bus, I caught her while walking past. For a split second, her face was revealed, a mystery solved. And she was normal looking, even cute. Huh. When I turned around to get another look, though, she was gone.

Athens, Georgia, I believe, is full of ghosts and anxiety. Lesson learned. Mommas don't let your babies spend full days at small malls.